this is now my personal venting journal.
Peacefuli'm that timeless old pickle... do what you're passionate about... or do what you're good at but don't necessarily feel the same passion for?
do something where i could make more money, but have less time to myself or do something a little more humbling at still have my personal freedom?
this seems like something silly to worry about at such a young age but... i don't know. somehow i feel like if i don't find out what i really want out of life now, i'm going to be one of those people who either really hates their career, gives up on life and becomes a philosophizing-hippie like the birdy man [reference to this weird documentary lol nvm], or has some kind of weird epiphany during a mid-life crisis and changes their entire path.
sometimes i think i'm crazy for thinking about this so much.
sometimes it just feels like despite the fact that i'm only 17 time is just flying past me and before i know it i'm going to be decomposing in the ground, having wasted my life doing nothing that really made me happy.
i know what type of person i am or at least it think i do.
i analyze every single thing around myself.
i like being given a problem to solve, but i need a kick in the right direction to get me going.
i like playing with things, figuring out -exactly- how they work, to the very last detail; vague explanations never satisfy me.
i cannot stand doing nothing. if i'm not doing something even productive in the least, i get antsy and feel like i'm wasting time. time is money. money is either very useful or very useless depending on your outlook on life. to me, money is very useful. therefore, time is important to me. i've even begun to equate the things i do or purchase to how much of my time at work they equal. is that stupid purse really worth 3 days of my time? probably not. should have thought that one through a bit more, but meh.
i don't know really who i am or what i should do.
i really need an aptitude test lol.
just tell me what i'm suited for, and i'll do it.
maybe save the things i'm passionate about for when i'm out of uni and financially stable hah.
or i could just follow them now... and find a career that i'm actually passionate about later on in life.
hmmm.
see i'm planning on being an engineer.
but i'm not sure. because i don't want some kind of stupid 9-5 desk job doing mind-numbing crap.
well i think this is about the longest i've ranted in a while. i don't even use this site any more really lol. except for yesterday, err, today... but that was just a i'm-bored-and-stressed-and-staying-up-until-4-editing-photos-is-the-only-thing-that-will-keep-me-sane-kind of thing.
ahem. some rants on "men" to come soon.
i missed venting on the internet. hah. mostly because i would vent to my boyfriend, but i've learned that complaining and whining about everything all the time makes you sound like a douchebag lol. so i'm reserving my whining to this journal from now on.
♥ caitlin
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